Sometimes...

I'm sure that the general Christian population can back me up when I say that sometimes I have absolutely no idea what God is doing. I remember about a week ago, I thought I finally had this whole job issue figured out. It is a pretty big issue considering I have bills and rent to pay, and I wasn't planning on being homeless anytime soon. Then, I talked to Regions again. I really thought this phone call was just going to be some kind of confirmation type deal, no biggie. Well, I was wrong. The lady apologized several times, and informed me that they no longer had the position available that they hired me for. I got off the phone and started crying. In the midst of trying to pull my scattered self together, I started asking God why this was happening. (Side note: A few years back I used to think that it was not okay to ask God why. I really thought that I was supposed to be passive and bottle up those emotions. You know the ones like why is my 19 year old friend suddenly dead, but then my youth minister... whom I look up to immensely... informed me that it is in fact okay. While God may chuckle at us and say, because I know what I'm doing... don't you know that by now. It is okay. Now back to the point)...

In all of this ugly crying, nose blowing, and bafflement, I remembered a passage that Joseph talked to the youth about a few weeks earlier. Isaiah 55 is pretty awesome. Verses 8 and 9 say,

"'For my thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways my ways,' declares the Lord. 'For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways And my thoughts higher than your thoughts.'"

God knows what he is doing. And while I didn't want to accept that a week ago, he showed me that. I went for an interview with Compass Bank this week. I thought the process was going to be another long one, just like the Regions process. I received an e-mail from Compass on Monday saying they had received my application (from about 4 weeks ago), and they wanted me to come in for a test/interview. I was excited. At least I now had a prospect of a job again. So, I went in Wednesday morning, and by that afternoon, they were calling me and offering me a job. Not to mention more money than Regions offered. God knew what he was doing. Truth is, I needed to make more money than Regions was willing to give, and God took care of me! Unless something goes wrong between now and Monday, I will be starting a job on Monday morning. Yay.

VBS pictures are coming soon. Tonight is the last night. It has been great. Last night I came home with blue tempera paint all over me. The joy of painting picture frames!